Current mood:

homesick

Nostaliga...
Perhaps it is the exhaustion from the lack of sleep due to a domestic disturbance outside my apartment last night... or perhaps it is the onset of returning depression (in summer of all times... odd...), but I am experiencing a very odd phenomenon.

I am "homesick" for my life in Japan.

Yes, nearly 3 years after my return, I'm experiencing true longing and not just culture shock. I miss the traveling I got to do. I miss the money I was making there. I miss not having a car yet being able to get around easily. I miss the kids, my coworkers, my friends....and damn do I miss the food. Let's face it, Japanese food in America sucks unless you are willing to pay a small fortune for an authentic restaurant. Even the "Japanese food" that they do have over here is so limited. You're basically talking sushi or "hibachi" - which by the way, is not Japanese. What about Japanese-style crepes? What about that rice/egg dish that I had at the Kyoto ryokan? I miss lying on a futon, crazy and energetic television, being able to communicate in a language other than English, and general cultural things. I have lost so much of what little language skills I acquired over there, and I have no time to take a class over here.

And sadly, there is really little hope of me ever returning for a significant amount of time. *sigh*

How the hell do I get over this one?