Current mood:

aggravated

Holidays
So yea I haven't made many posts of substance as of late, but here is one of substance (although it is disjointed, sry.)

I have learned that I hate being tied down by school. I love school and I love learning, but the fact that I must do my program in Milwaukee ticks me off. I want the freedom to be able to switch jobs whenever I want and move whenever I want. I don't like this contractual stuff. However, being tied to people doesn't bother me at all. I live in Milwaukee because I am tied to my friends. I don't want to leave there because my friends are there. I don't want to be too far from my family either. And, my friends and family have no impact on my career, so I don't feel suffocated by them as I do by school.

I also have no free time whatsoever. I have school 2 nights a week and am not home until at least 8pm on those nights. Considering I need time to wind down before my early bedtime, this is a problem! 6 am does come early after all, and I have trouble sleeping as it is... So anyway, on the nights I have off, I do homework...and more homework. I have been home for a grand total of 2 full weekends since the school year began. Life is just too crazy sometimes. Trying to schedule a time to take my car in for maintenance proved difficult.

In addition to this, my knee has been causing me tremendous pain. I had a second MRI done on it last Friday and received the results yesterday. Not only did the doctor confirm for me that the ortho I saw in Illinois had no clue what he was doing, he also informed me that basically nothing can be done for me at this point. It's not bad enough for surgery, but I have more "wear and tear" than normal. Goodie. So here I'm thinking now that it must all be in my head or something. I guess I have to live with the pain until something breaks or tears.

I am also having a nice new back pain. I pulled a muscle while sleeping, which is not uncommon for me. The pain usually goes away in a few days at most. I've had this pain and tensing up for well over a month now. Not only this, but I have been having stomach problems that some suspect could be an onset of lactose intolerance. This is a major problem when I live in Wisconsin! Others suspect it could be an ulcer. I don't know what it is. I'm testing the lactose theory by avoiding dairy right now. I really have no desire for more doctors, especially when they can't figure out what's wrong or do anything for me.

Also I gained some of my weight back. Grrrr! At least the Christmas season is approaching.